Time is a concept that human made to express the occurrence of a moment. 

how long does earth need to revolute the sun is a year

how long does the moon need to surround the earth once is a month

how long does the earth spin once is a day

how long does 24 hours a day

1 hour contain of 60 minutes

1 minute contain of 60 second 

and 1 second is the standard of time in a International system

which mean, one day contain of 86,400 second. An electron in front of us can moved 2200 km surrounding the centre of atom for the each second. Which mean in a day there's more than just 86,400 possibility which could happen anywhere not only in front our eyes. It is the weakness of us that we can only feel, taste, see, touch, know and create just a few of those moments. 

much people come and go in each second

born and death even faster than a second

passing trough just in a moment

Time also is a concept of people to tell the moment itself

Past is the moment which have done

Present is the moment which just occur it's usually said as "now" by people

and Future is something different with moment in front of us which contain of possibility which nobody will know until the moment start the process or not at all

Past is contain of memory

Present is contain of moment

and Future is contain of prophecy

The past, present and future is create by energy

and the past, the present and the future of us is created by the energy of feeling which people usually called as love.

So, how long do I need to love you?

FOREVER

It's been a day since the last time I receive your message.

It just feel ok at the first, I start the day like nothing had happened before. It just feel like the usual day that I pass.

I'm having any exercise, had my own brunch at campus, and just came back to my bedroom for some rest till I realised that there's something that I didn't get today. 

"HER WORD" 

the word from someone that always hear my word. The news of someone that always looking after me every time I stuck for joying my save place. 

She's the reason why I become so brave to leave the comfort zone and rethink to make my own castle which build by my own lego of dream. But she's the only comfort zone that I won't left. 

I don't know why but it's feel that I just have done a big mistake to her for being so rude to her which just like I'm act that I'm not paying any attention to her all this time. I also don't know how I acted like that.

All I know now just that I'm missing her because she's missing from me. I know it just a few days, but I think it will feels like a long day, I'm sure of it.

I know it was just 3 days,

but hey

it's 72 hours 

means

it's 4.320 minute

NO,

it's 259.200 second

I know, there must be a lot of thing I can do in 259.200 second. But I just feel so lonely when I do all the things without hear any word from her. In a lonely world I'm just thinking, what a real man would do. Thinking of it making me more sad, suffering and dying. 

It just a quarter of 259.200 second but I'm already missing her. I don't know how far she's there, I don't know how many miles she's out there from me. All I can do is just continue the boring day even if It's so sad and lonely in the night.

I Just watching a animation movie just now, and in the end, there's a good picture. It need a quite long time to capture because I'm watching it in youtube and it's buffering when I'm trying to rewind and replay the film. here it is

Looking at those just make me wonder how long do I need to be the guy on the left side and she become the girl on the right side. Everything seems so happy in the end of those film, those moment really is making me in much much jealous. Making me more unpatient with time. Making me want to through the time faster even if enjoying the time is also as excited as it. 

this is the report from me, 

for her

the one I want to be with in the end of the day

Right now i'm just sitting and looking her face through the screen and separated by miles. It just feel like a dream when you can see something but can't have such a feeling of holding and touching. and then all the envious is going out madly trough my mind told my heart something bad.

Something bad that makes me envy.
Not with creatures but non living objects.

I'm kinda jealous to her phone camera which can see her face so often
I also jealous to her clothes that always holding her body and making her feel so safe
I' m jealous to her blanket that always making her feeling warm over the night
and I'm jealous to all drinking glass that so often meet her lips, kissing her unconsciously

i'm jealous
I'M ENVY

• "I had always heard your entire life flashes in front of your eyes the second before you die. First of all, that one second isn't a second at all. It stretches on forever, like an ocean of time. For me, it was lying on my back at Boy Scout Camp, watching falling stars. And yellow leaves from the maple trees that lined our street. Or my grandmother's hands, and the way her skin seemed like paper. And the first time I saw my cousin Tony's brand new Firebird. And Janie, and Janie. And Carolyn. I guess I could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me, but it's hard to stay mad when there's so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I'm seeing it all at once, and it's too much. My heart fills up like a balloon that's about to burst. And then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold on to it, and then it flows through me like rain, and I can't feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life. You have no idea what I'm talking about, I'm sure. But don't worry. You will someday." - american beauty

Everybody

Everybody must be ever feel a bad period in their life when they feel their life was so unfair or unjust or not the same as they expect that making them feel so disappointed.

Disappoint to the self, disappoint to the term and condition and even disappointed to god.

People always like to try to find the suspect of the bad things that happening to them even though there's no suspect to what had force them without realising that may be it just the the junction or rise that we have to through to finish at the end of the road, to get what we want.

But god working in so mysterious way.

there's a thousand way to rome

1 day consist of 24 hours means 1440 minute which is 86400 seconds which every second was contain a million possibilities and there's a thousand choice you can choose.

There's also a thousand even a million way and finish line that god has prepared for you and it's up to you to chose which road you want to pass through. Some road has the same finish line but the different panorama around it but every road is different. there's too much way. that's why sometimes it will cross other peoples way. It was the moment when you met somebody. Somebody that you can chose as the one that will be with you forever or just a stranger who pass through.

But never be disappointed about the way you have chosen. Believe me every road you chose has a happy ending in the end of those road.

If you feel so down now, just believe there's still a good things ahead.

dedicated to you - the one who feeling sad

Manusia hidup di dunia. Dunia yang selalu menjadi tempat mereka berpijak. Dunia yang tak lepas dari spasi dan jarak. Spasi yang selalu menjadi alasan berkelana dan Spasi juga yang membuat seseorang berhenti mengelana. Namun masih ada hal lain yang membuat kita bisa berpijak

Gravitasi

Ada yang bilang gravitasi adalah suatu gaya yang dihasilkan saat dua benda yang berbeda saling berdekatan. Namun ada juga yang bilang bahwa gravitasi adalah pelengkungan dimensi ruang oleh waktu. Tidak ada yang salah, Tidak ada juga yang benar. Namun bagaimana jika 2 hati saling bertemu?

Jawabannya tidak ada hubungannya dengan gravitasi. Namun jawabannya ada di balik hal tersebut. ada satu hal yang sering dilupakan manusia mengenai tempat mereka hidup.

KALA

Semua orang punya kepercayaan masing - masing. Percaya sama tuhan, percaya sama semesta, bahkan percaya teori - teori konyol yang ada sekarang.

Tapi ada satu hal lebih dari itu yang ternyata sering dilupain orang banyak.

Percaya dengan diri sendiri

Setiap orang punya 2 kesamaan. ya, DNA yang sejenis dan akses ke diri mereka sendiri. Sisanya adalah berbagai variasi yang membuat kalian unik dan tidak ada yang bisa menyamai. Jika kita dengan diri sendiri saja tidak percaya, maka jangan berani bilang kalau anda percaya dengan tuhan.