Ok...
Ini adalah sebagian hal yang gue dapet setelah melakukan riset ke beberapa film sebagai masukan
OK, mulai dari film Janji Joni
Sekarang proyek film gue udah jalan.
Tapi ada permasalahan baru yang timbul..
dan semua permasalahan itu bakalan jadi bahan riset buat gue. Nah, permasalahan yang pertama adalah... Apa aja yang kemungkinan bisa terjadi di jalanan Indonesia? Kalo boleh jujur, sebenernya ada banyak banget yang bisa terjadi di jalanan Indonesia..
Bisa aja di perjalanan tiba - tiba ada meteor yang jatoh yang ternyata adalah telor godzila, terus tiba - tiba ada ultraman atau autobots yang dateng buat ngehancurin si godzila, tapi ternyata si ultraman kurang kuat, akhirnya selama setengah tahun si pemeran utama stuck di jalan karena harus diem di pengungsian..
Ini aneh...
Aneh banget...
Gue entah kenapa jadi kepikiran beberapa konsep buat bikin skrip film. ada 3 judul yang gue pikirin...
Thanks god that I still have a bit time to write a certain things like this.
I know, when people read what I'm going to write now will think and said
"he must be insane, he must be crazy..."
To be honest, I do insane, I do crazy and now I'm under pressure.. And thanks for those things that I'm still survive now. I know life is full of problem, I know life is full of shit. But think once again. aren't you still allrigth in the middle of the trouble? This is kind of the mindset that I would change now. To not affraid anymore to the trouble and to be calmer to face the trouble. But what scared me a lot is TIME!
Well, just like the post before HERE
Now is the time for the next project. I know it's a bit insane to say this thing as a project, because I don't even know what I'm going to get by doing this project. I ever hear someone said this.
"it is hard to love yourself if you still not forgiving yourself yet"
absolutely he said that words in Bahasa
So, what should I do to forgiving my self?
hm... gue abis baca buku nih...
Bukunya keren banget, tapi gue belom selesai bacanya sih emang
ini nih, penampakan bukunya..
Apa yang ngebedain buku ini ama buku yang lain?
Well sebenernya engga ada... sama - sama dibuat dari kertas, sama - sama diketik pake komputer tapi....
Tapi ada sesuatu yang aneh dari buku ini, buku self develop ini isinya aneh... Aneh karena buku ini ga ngajarin gue untuk terlalu ambisius untuk mengejar mimpi.. Tapi buku ini juga ngajarin gue kalo hidup kita fine fine aja walaupun sedang kacau
Well, I know that my project has delayed for about a week but look..
The miracles coming real..
Now I've seen how much my parents happiness and making me no worried to lift up my head more a bit..
I've been accepted as the new student in the university that I really think was impossible to be accepted as student all this time.
And it just feel like a dreams come true..
Sometimes I'm just thinking that it all wasn't real, but I just can't wake up from this dream which really look a like with the real world..
It's the 25th day and I'm so grateful that I'm still alive even if have no spirit today..
Today exercise called as the magical clue
So, what I'm gonna do today is be grateful about anything you thing as a clue of something
It's the 24th day..
And I feel like I was a free man today. I just feel so fresh and my pain, fear and worries just gone. I don't know where they're now. do they just hiding or really gone from myself I just didn't realize it. And for that things, Thank you so much....
So, today's practice called as the "MAGIC STICK"
So, this is monday and all I want to do is doing this project and watching some funny movies to make me feel a little better.
So, I called this day as the magical fresh air
Because all I have to do is be grateful about the air I've ever inhaling. So, I've to be grateful in every single breath I take..
And god, please help me to make this project cleared...
So, it's Sunday and this is the 22nd day..
Everything just seems so normal and I'm not sure that I'm still in pressure or not. The only thing I'm sure that it's 10 a clock and it's Sunday.
Today's exercise called as the " in front the eye "
all I have to do is write down 10 desire that I really want.
Well, gue udah bosen ngeblog pake bahasa Inggris karena gue ga tinggal di negara berbahasa inggris.. Yang buka blog gue sekarang lebih banyak orang Amerika nya daripada orang Indonesianya, makanya post gue yang kali ini mau pake bahasa Ibu saja,
Yeah, BAHASA BALI
Jadi udah sampe mana ya?
Oh iya, By the way soal Kaiju. Katanya Indonesia mau beli Gundam loh.. Keren banget deh..
Kayanya gue pengen jadi pilot gundam aja dibandingin jadi astronot.. Gundam kan bisa ke luar angkasa juga... Tapi itu ga penting sih soalnya film yang pingin gue bikin alur ceritanya engga kaya gitu..
Well, sebelum gue mulai ceritanya. Gue udah nemu beberapa film romantis yang menginspirasi gue
This is the 3 weeks and thanks god for making this project still continue..
So, today named as THE AMAZING RESULT exercise.
What I have to do is just feel that everything I want has done.. Just chose 3 things that you want to be done. The 3 that you really want and be grateful about that things.
So, I'm not going to write it down all that 3 things but god must be know what I need to be done.. So just let god solve it if he's not busy..
Well, I'm not a good film director but sometimes a people like me really want to make a film, an amazing one which all people gonna be so impressed after watching it.
In my place, Indonesia...
The kind of film which attract the cool teen to watch is just the kind of romance, comedy film. Oh ya, lately, Indonesian like to watch their action movies even though it was too cruel..
Well, I'm choosing drama, comedy, romance film
and it was some film which inspired me
The first is
Um, again again and again, a strange feeling forces me..
I don't know what to do to this feeling, a feeling that I'm sure nobody want to feel.
When fear, disapoint, and losing join up with sad and becoming one.
"The Power" told me that I have to release that feeling and becoming happy and feel lovely again, but the condition force me.....
It's hard and I hope god will send me his angel to hug me at least...
To be honest. I don't think I can do this exercise because I need to get myself better by here. Think about myself in my bedroom..
Why I don't think I can't do this?
Today is the 19th day and all I have to do is walk and say thank you after every step I've taken and I've to do it a 100 step..
That's why I don't think that I'm ready because I'm not ready to see the world again yet.
Well, thanks god that today was so silence because I need this condition sometimes..
And this 18th day called as the magical work list..
I don't really understand what the book told me today but all I get is that I have to make a list about the things that might be impossible for me to do and be grateful about that. And also it include the list of the problem that I have to solve.. focus to 3 things on the list and give it 1 minute to think about it
So, here they are.
I'm not going to write 10 because all the things that I want to solve now is just about my school
To be honest, I'm not in a good condition
I don't really know that I have to be proud or sad this time, but it's not going to stop this whole project
So, this is the 17th day called as the magical check day...
and what I'm going to do is
1st.
Print out this check
Well, I'm so excited today... that I'm going to write early again about my project
So, this is the 16th day..
And to be honest, I don't know what is the different today and the day 4 project.. It has the same name and the same purpose.
So, what I've to do this day is
Think about the past when you're on top of the world
UMMM, I don't think that kind of top of the world that they mean...
Maybe what they mean is what described on this song!
Ya, who knows...
Letme start remembering it..
Ummm.. I remember that time, when I was an elementary school's student. I remember that I was the most jerk and smart guy that time even though I was a lazy boy, I'm still on top even if my teacher bring my rank down but my friend still think that I'm the man on the top that time. I really remember it when It making me so arrogant at the last.. But thanks for all those experience. At least I know how it feel becoming the man on the top even though we're not always be on the top but I really want to reach that place again.. Amen
And then, what I have to do is to be grateful again about 5 parts of my body
so...
Thanks to my eye, because of you I can see the whole world since the first time I born
Thanks so much to all my inside organ for working all the time without rest because you're make me still alive
Thanks so much to my ear for always listening even if when I sleep
Thanks so much for my tounge because you're the reason that I was selective eater
Thanks so much to my limbs for accompany me whereever I go..
Thanks a lot... you're the most perfect thing I ever have, the things which never betray me.. I love you
Andy Saputra on monday, May 19th 2014 Dear god Thanks for waking me up earlier this morning so I have much time to start the day, I believe I need this condition when I was a college student Thanks so much for the dinner last night because it make me strong and ready to face today Thanks so much to all people who make the food and water still exist because you're the reason why the human still alive Thanks so much for all the things I've ever learn because I believe it was so useful not only for me but also the others Thanks so much for all the people and all the things which ever teaching, inspiring and also motivating me because they're all the reason of all the knowledge and the philosophy I've known Thanks so much for the people who loves and keep supporting me because they're the reason why o want to be great man Thanks so much for letting me become who I am now because I believe that we only can be the best if we become our self not the other Thanks so much for all the thing you ever gave me for free because It make me didn't feel losing Thanks so much for today because who knows that today is the last day of us.. Thanks, Thanks, Thanks so much for the perfect solving
I know I know..
It's really late to post it today... but late is better than never right?
I was so tired after back from my hometown just now..
So, in this 15th day what I have to do is healing the broken relationship..
well, sometimes I just don't wanna build it up again. why? because I just don't wanna feel the same pain again..
so, what I have to do now is writing 10 things that I really grateful about his/her and be grateful for it..
Finally..
I'm not going to fix my relation to my ex, but All I want to fix is my relationship with myself
