Right now i'm just sitting and looking her face through the screen and separated by miles. It just feel like a dream when you can see something but can't have such a feeling of holding and touching. and then all the envious is going out madly trough my mind told my heart something bad.

Something bad that makes me envy.
Not with creatures but non living objects.

I'm kinda jealous to her phone camera which can see her face so often
I also jealous to her clothes that always holding her body and making her feel so safe
I' m jealous to her blanket that always making her feeling warm over the night
and I'm jealous to all drinking glass that so often meet her lips, kissing her unconsciously

i'm jealous
I'M ENVY

• "I had always heard your entire life flashes in front of your eyes the second before you die. First of all, that one second isn't a second at all. It stretches on forever, like an ocean of time. For me, it was lying on my back at Boy Scout Camp, watching falling stars. And yellow leaves from the maple trees that lined our street. Or my grandmother's hands, and the way her skin seemed like paper. And the first time I saw my cousin Tony's brand new Firebird. And Janie, and Janie. And Carolyn. I guess I could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me, but it's hard to stay mad when there's so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I'm seeing it all at once, and it's too much. My heart fills up like a balloon that's about to burst. And then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold on to it, and then it flows through me like rain, and I can't feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life. You have no idea what I'm talking about, I'm sure. But don't worry. You will someday." - american beauty

Everybody

Everybody must be ever feel a bad period in their life when they feel their life was so unfair or unjust or not the same as they expect that making them feel so disappointed.

Disappoint to the self, disappoint to the term and condition and even disappointed to god.

People always like to try to find the suspect of the bad things that happening to them even though there's no suspect to what had force them without realising that may be it just the the junction or rise that we have to through to finish at the end of the road, to get what we want.

But god working in so mysterious way.

there's a thousand way to rome

1 day consist of 24 hours means 1440 minute which is 86400 seconds which every second was contain a million possibilities and there's a thousand choice you can choose.

There's also a thousand even a million way and finish line that god has prepared for you and it's up to you to chose which road you want to pass through. Some road has the same finish line but the different panorama around it but every road is different. there's too much way. that's why sometimes it will cross other peoples way. It was the moment when you met somebody. Somebody that you can chose as the one that will be with you forever or just a stranger who pass through.

But never be disappointed about the way you have chosen. Believe me every road you chose has a happy ending in the end of those road.

If you feel so down now, just believe there's still a good things ahead.

dedicated to you - the one who feeling sad

Manusia hidup di dunia. Dunia yang selalu menjadi tempat mereka berpijak. Dunia yang tak lepas dari spasi dan jarak. Spasi yang selalu menjadi alasan berkelana dan Spasi juga yang membuat seseorang berhenti mengelana. Namun masih ada hal lain yang membuat kita bisa berpijak

Gravitasi

Ada yang bilang gravitasi adalah suatu gaya yang dihasilkan saat dua benda yang berbeda saling berdekatan. Namun ada juga yang bilang bahwa gravitasi adalah pelengkungan dimensi ruang oleh waktu. Tidak ada yang salah, Tidak ada juga yang benar. Namun bagaimana jika 2 hati saling bertemu?

Jawabannya tidak ada hubungannya dengan gravitasi. Namun jawabannya ada di balik hal tersebut. ada satu hal yang sering dilupakan manusia mengenai tempat mereka hidup.

KALA

Semua orang punya kepercayaan masing - masing. Percaya sama tuhan, percaya sama semesta, bahkan percaya teori - teori konyol yang ada sekarang.

Tapi ada satu hal lebih dari itu yang ternyata sering dilupain orang banyak.

Percaya dengan diri sendiri

Setiap orang punya 2 kesamaan. ya, DNA yang sejenis dan akses ke diri mereka sendiri. Sisanya adalah berbagai variasi yang membuat kalian unik dan tidak ada yang bisa menyamai. Jika kita dengan diri sendiri saja tidak percaya, maka jangan berani bilang kalau anda percaya dengan tuhan.

She's crying

I just saw her tears falling down. down to the earth

She's crying

I just saw she's hurt terribly. deep inside her heart inside her dreams

She's crying

I just saw her a lot in pain

Barangkali diantara kalian yang baca ada beberapa orang yang catetan bolos nya bersih... Sama kaya gue dulu. Gue engga tau apakah yang kemarin gue lakuin itu termasuk tindakan bolos atau engga. Tapi begini nih ceritanya....

Boleh dibilang, hari kamis adalah hari yang paling membosankan selama seester 2 ini. Bukan karena matakuliah yang membosankan tapi karena dosennya yang bisa dibilang sangat membosankan... Ada 2 matakuliah pada hari kamis sebut saja mata kuliah tersebut adalah mata kuliah baheula tahun 60an dan yang satu lagi adalah matakuliah super membosankan selanjutnya.

Gue juga bingung kenapa kedua mata kuliah tersebut menjadi complicated. Yang satu dosennya super duper galak dan tega, dan yang satu lagi tidak peduli dengan mahasiswa yang ada di dalam kelas. Si dosen yang pertama ini adalah salah satu dosen yang tertua di kampus gue. Jadi wajar caranya memberi nilai masih sama seperti angkatan 60an.